does he kiss your eyelids in the morning
when you start to raise your head
and does he sing to you incessantly
in the space between your bed and wall...

a great, great high school song that has--shockingly, inexplicably--withstood the test of time

all night, i dreamt of homeless people. i felt quite apart from them although i, too, was looking for a place to sleep. i found what looked like a mechanic's shop, but the men there seemed rowdy and slightly drunk. i found a tiny run-down room with four people to a bed...

then, lying on a doorstep, a girl who looked so much like my sister, who had nearly drowned, and who was still soaking wet. she tried hard to speak, but nothing came out. i put my hand on her bloody belly and stayed to comfort her until she passed..

i don't know where i slept, or if i did

i returned to the area the next day to find the police doing a "sweep".. children being removed from the bike shops where they "lived".. families packing up. i was concerned they'd arrest me, for some reason, and walked in the opposite direction

جان دلم
милая моя
אני אוהבת אותך

no language is enough

warmest, dearest birthday thoughts and wishes

miss fisher's murder mysteries

maybe the best line of the series:

Isobelle, facing two policemen: so, which one of you wants to inspect me?

i haven't seen the last episode yet, but i really, really, really can't believe the daily show is over. anticipating an emotional night...

Вспоминаю, как утречком раненько
Брату крикнуть успел: "​​Пособи!"
И меня два красивых охранника
Повезли из Сибири в Сибирь.

تولدت مبارک

warmest birthday wishes, to one who is far away
and to our little monkey turning 9

f's phrase of the month--of dooneh: she keeps in touch with all four paws, you know? because she doesn't have a cell phone

apparently i'm still very capable of bursting into baby tears when someone is mean to me on the road. what stupidity.

this, after a night of dreaming about having other people's nightmares

tears, tears, tears in the hallway... it's about bloody time
gay marriage upheld by US supreme court

this disgusting person wanted to "start a race war"
let's show him that he can't

f's phrase of the month--on the weirdness of russian pronunciation:

why did you cut a "ye" in half? just decide: either you want it or you don't!

dammit. my russian has deteriorated to the point where i'm literally tripping over my own tongue

there are now two languages i have to urgently improve

i walked through my parents' house today, signs of the break-in visible here and there...

it wasn't as bad as we thought, and a relief that nothing was broken; nothing serious taken*... but seeing my grandfather's war medals strewn in a little pile on the floor of the study had a greater effect on me than i expected. our most valuable of valuables, of course, and they meant nothing to these people

rest in peace, dedushka

*i've since discovered that items of sentimental value were taken...it's hard to imagine a stranger's hands on something so personal

f's phrase of the day: these two were like frat boys gone hipster

you may think you've covered everything--and you have, for the most part.
but somehow, somewhere, there's an (unintentionally) italicized comma.
and someone, somewhere is going to see it.

With an unexceptionally Arab family name like Saïd connected to an improbably British first name (my mother much admired the Prince of Wales in 1935, the year of my birth), I was an uncomfortably anomalous student all through my early years: a Palestinian going to school in Egypt, with an English first name, an American passport and no certain identity at all. To make matters worse, Arabic, my native language, and English, my school language, were inextricably mixed: I have never known which was my first language, and have felt fully at home in neither, although I dream in both. Every time I speak an English sentence, I find myself echoing it in Arabic, and vice versa.

-- Edward Saïd

downtown is a cold, depressing place after 10pm. one man's repeated nighttime howling, ejected from opposite ends of queen st and directed at nothing and nobody in particular, is soon met by a younger man's shout of response. the space between them widens and widens, but this frantic dialogue continues. a hamburger drops from the young man's pocket--he swears profusely, picks it up, and eats it. his wild laughter punctuates the scene.

this is real life, i know, but it feels like something out of someone else's feverish dream..

i did not officially commemorate (on paper) what i consider to be a real victory in Lausanne. there was significant relief at home the minute it was announced; even my mom responded with a flurry of hopeful emails.

we've been assured left and right that it's not a full agreement, but even the "framework" of one is cause for optimism. now if only Netanyahu could keep his mouth shut and act like a human being...

the other day i listened to a recorded conversation in which i took part and noticed the weirdest thing: i have an accent! one or two people have said so, and many others have pointed to my (unnecessarily strong but at this point habitual) enunciation--and yet i've never believed the former.

i hear it now, though... an honest-to-god accent!